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What do I do next?

This week I stepped back into a conversation my husband and I began a few years ago.  At the time we were talking about church, what is the purpose and how should an individual participate. We ended the discussion on a question neither of us could answer.  That question came up again this week.

“What do I do next to continue to grow closer to God?”

You see, at some point I realized I was a consistent prayer and journal writer, Bible reader and studier. I was a regular participant in church and a volunteer.  I was involved in short term mission trips and ministries at home.  In every way I would be considered a mature Christian.

Except I didn’t feel like I was done growing.  I didn’t get the sense that I had arrived and all I had to do was what I was already doing. But I didn’t know what the “next” was.  What do you do when you already have the basics down?  What do you do when you already do all the stuff a good Christian does?

It was shortly after this conversation that I began the several month journey that ended in my realization that I was to become a midwife.  My “next” was nursing school.  My “next” was something I dreaded, something that turned my life upside down.

Are you seeking your “next?” I seem to see many new and expectant mother’s find themselves in the midst of longing for the “next” while they are caring for young children. For some, the new responsibilities are exhausting emotionally and physically- and their normal Christian activities are not “enough” anymore. If you are looking for the “next” step to grow closer to God I encourage you to open your eyes to the opportunities around you. You may be just as surprised by your next step as I was by mine.

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Jennifer Vanderlaan CNM MPH is the author of the BirthingNaturally.net website. She has been working with expectant families since 2000, training doulas and childbirth educators, and midwives. She has worked with midwives in Central America and Sub-Saharan Africa. Her interest in public health grew in 2010, and she is now a PhD student in a nursing program learning to become a producer of knowledge.

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