I was reminded this morning how difficult it can be to actually be willing to grow. Growth brings change, and we are comfortable where we are.  Others are comfortable with us where we are.  Sometimes it feels like growth ruins everything. And lets face it, pregnancy and parenting is definitely a time of growing. I was challenged to see things in a new way, experienced “problems” from a new perspective.  My understanding was broadened.  But it wasn’t easy. I wrote this to a friend who actually brought this topic to my mind this week: I’ve found so much of my understanding of Christianity has evolvedRead More →

I’m starting to avoid social media. I do like the ability to share the ins and outs of my daily life with my family and close friends (who all live hundreds of miles from me). I just find the conversations and sharing of blog posts disruptive to my extended friendships. No matter how hard I try, it is nearly impossible not to start thinking differently about a person after I have seen a few of the things she “shares” on social media. This wouldn’t be so bad if what people were sharing were real questions and thoughts they had as they struggled through this ministryRead More →

I ran across this article from the CDC today: Breastfeeding practices: does method of delivery matter? Maybe you are like me, you want the researchers to say it doesn’t matter.  In part, they did.  It turns out there is no difference in initiation of breastfeeding.  It’s just that women who have an induction or a cesarean are less likely to breastfeed to 4 weeks and to 6 months. There may be many reasons this happens.  In the hospital, the nurses are trained to offer help and support.  While it may not be perfect, it is something. For many women this may be the most helpRead More →

I’m in a health economics course this semester, and I’ve been spending the last few weeks pondering the idea of insurance as a health financing tool.  I’ve never been a fan of insurance – I’m still young and healthy so even in years I’ve had children I’ve paid more in insurance premiums than I would have spent out of pocket. Basically, insurance is a risk pool.  I put my money in, you put your money in and if something happens to either of us we have the money to pay for it. There are definitely some problems with the way insurance works in real life,Read More →

I’ve challenged myself to learn to have more compassion. I admit it has been an interesting summer with unexpected, but much appreciated, personal growth. I was starting to feel that I was mastering compassion, until today. This afternoon as I was preparing to make soup from a new recipe, I responded to the direction to “mince the vegetables in a food processor” with a mental, “Why would they do that?” I didn’t ask this question seeking new understanding of cooking theory or techniques.  In reality it wasn’t even a question – but rather something I said instead of saying, “I think their direction is wrongRead More →

I had an interesting conversation with a midwife friend at the conference last week.  We talked about our philosophies of health, and it was a great reminder to me that many people interpret natural and holistic living differently. My friend what sharing about her use of herbs.  She likes to use herbs with the women she works with because she feels it is safer than pharmaceuticals.  I shared that I don’t use herbs except those which I include in my cooking. She was intrigued – you don’t often find natural birth people who do not use herbs. But it was my reasoning that was most interesting toRead More →

When I was working as a doula I was always amazed at how perfectly God timed births.  They always began and ended at times that fit so amazingly into my schedule in ways I would never have thought to plan them. God thought of everything as he prepared these women to labor. My faith in God’s perfect timing is being tested as I wait for labors to start. I am only able to be at the birth center for a few days each week, and it seems these tend to be the few days when no one will labor. So I spend three or fourRead More →

I am not a wordsmith like some of my friends, but I do enjoy words.  I enjoy the way similar words have slightly different meanings.  I love finding just the right word to express a feeling. Well written songs move my heart. Basically, I try to pay attention to words. So this weekend at church I found myself lost in thought after the Bible reading – Ask, seek, knock.  I had always read that as a line of repetition as if each word meant the same thing and it was repeated for emphasis.  As if Jesus were saying, “Don’t you get it, just ask.” But this week,Read More →

I want to share a source of frustration with you, the term “holistic” when it is applied to natural birthing. This is not because I am in any way against holistic birthing.  In fact, I encourage women to prepare holistically.  What frustrates me is the term, and the inappropriate way it is used and understood. Holistic really means “whole.”  In holistic care you care for the whole person – body, mind and soul/spirit.  You worry about the emotions and the vital signs.  You ensure adequate spiritual and intellectual development. It is a package deal. You are not doing holistic care because you use herbs.  Herbs treat theRead More →

Learning is a slow process.  It requires exploring a new subject, experimenting with it and looking at it from different angles until you suddenly realize you understand it. All learning is like this, whether you are learning to follow God, learning to speak a foreign language or learning to be a parent. It can be frustrating to wait.  It can be even more frustrating to feel as if you must relearn the same principle over and over because it simply will not stick.   If you are anything like me, at times you want to scream at God, “Why won’t you just teach me!” But, he isRead More →