Tomorrow my preceptor (the midwife who is teaching me to be a midwife) will leave for the Christian Midwives Association annual conference. I cannot go because I have school responsibilities and will be leaving for Kenya the next week. This is the second year in a row I will be missing this conference. I love the […]
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I have had a great few weeks. I was accepted into a program at school that will allow me to spend two weeks working with non-English speaking immigrants with little or no access to health care. I was also asked by a colleague to accompany her to Narobi Kenya for a program she is planning. It is […]
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At my husband’s suggestion, I watched a birth movie tonight. Not one of the natural births you see in childbirth classes. A movie about birth as it happens in the United States, the good and the bad but of course mostly the bad. And of course, through tears at the end I started asking myself, […]
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This week I stepped back into a conversation my husband and I began a few years ago. At the time we were talking about church, what is the purpose and how should an individual participate. We ended the discussion on a question neither of us could answer. That question came up again this week. “What […]
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I had a wonderful conversation with a young man today who tearfully admitted he was angry with God. My heart broke for him, realizing he has felt this way for a while and felt trapped by this anger. He thought he could not tell anyone, and thought it was useless to talk to God about […]
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One thing I love about the new year is the built in pause to reflect on your life before moving into the next season. This past new year brought many changes for me – the end of my first semester in the midwifery program, my first trip home to see family in a year… and […]
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I wanted to share another secret with you. Before I had children I couldn’t imagine anyone could ever be as good a mother as I would be. When my daughter was born everything was perfect. When I found myself pregnant with my son I suddenly struggled to accept that I could mother both children. How could I […]
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I am a reluctant nurse and never expected to be training as a nurse midwife. I had given up the idea of being a midwife several years ago because my state did not license CPMs. I couldn’t stomach the thought of being the kind of midwife who was in an office doing pelvic exams all […]
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