I am about half-way through the second semester, which brings me to spring break.  For me it is merely a week to catch up, and I spent the first couple hours this morning cleaning and organizing emails, contact lists and calendars.  I have three conferences coming up, so part of that time was ensuring all my documents were in order: I’m actually registered with a confirmation number in hand. Flight or rental car is actually booked. Hotel is reserved. I am probably not the only person who “knows” what I’m going to do long before I do it and sometimes forgets a vital or pieceRead More →

The next piece of hypocrisy for me to tackle is the idea that my style of care is more evidence based than someone else’s idea of evidence based. I love the natural birth community for many things, evidence based care is not one of them. Much of what my community supports for birth is good, best quality care based on evidence. But often, with the next breath, I hear suggestions not based on evidence but on faith in natural health care. Some of this is not necessarily bad.  The way we learn is to try new things – things not yet supported by evidence.  ThenRead More →

I’ve come to accept that I lie to myself, even though I could never successfully lie to anyone else.  I’ve also come to accept this is a pretty normal human condition.  It seems we lie to ourselves more often than anyone else.  I lie about how much food I eat and how healthy it is.  I lie about how much time I waste. I lie about my motivations for the things I recommend. This week I want to spend  little time identifying some of the lies I’ve recognized in myself, in the hopes it helps you identify the lies you tell yourself. Why?  Because evenRead More →

Today I have my first day of rest in months. I have no homework, no papers, no tests, nothing to do.  But not really. I still have two days at the hospital this week, and I need to prepare. I need to update the website and prepare my business accounts for the end of the year to get ready for taxes. I actually have reading for the spring semester already assigned, and when I get back from visiting my extended family for the first time in a year I have two solid weeks of daily clinical time to complete the semester that ends today. SoRead More →

I wish I could tell you that I was excited about the semester being nearly over, but honestly I’m not.  I have one last paper to write (an issue brief on suggested policy change for midwifery) and two exams, so the workload is not a big deal.  It is the clinical time that is overwhelming me.  I got a late start with both midwifery and family practice clinicals, which everyone says is no big deal because I can make up the missing time over the summer or with my “extra” semester.  But not really. I want to apply to do an internship with a departmentRead More →

So last night I couldn’t sleep.  I have a few busy weeks coming up and my mind would not let go of all the work I need to do.  I hate nights like that, when I am so tired but my body will not fall asleep. Needless to say, I am finding it hard to find anything worthwhile to share today. I’ll just be doing finishing touches on projects and papers and preparing for tests. Not exciting, but it is my life. Time to unplug from the digital world and live in the real one.Read More →

I wisely signed up for a class being held the week before school starts.  Two credits towards my MPH in 5 days on a topic I find interesting, bring it on. As I finished up my last minute projects on Friday I wished for one more day to feel ready before school started.  It seems my wish was granted.  Winter weather has closed down the town, and my school.  All work is being completed via email. What did I do with my extra day today?  I ignored my to do list by playing and reading with the kids, baking muffins and shopping online. I am shockedRead More →

Over the last few days I have been crocheting a blanket my son and I started last winter. Just a small baby blanket made from yarn he picked out himself. It had been stuffed in a bag, set aside because school and moving and family life made me too busy to finish it. But I found it this week, and the blanket is progressing beautifully. And then it started to dawn on me, I haven’t scrapbooked a page since I started nursing school.  No need really, I have barely taken my camera out to snap some shots anyway.  I haven’t read a book other theRead More →

I wanted to share a few secrets I have for managing such a complicated life.  Some of them may help you manage the chaos that comes with birth related work.  But as with any technology, choose wisely.  What seems like a blessing may really become a curse. My first secret is a Google calendar. Not very secret I know, but it does some fabulous things that keep me organized. For starters, it allows me to add things to one calendar no matter where I am. So if I am in class and get a text about a meeting, I can add it on my laptop.Read More →